Reborn

Today, the troublesome final examination has finally ended. On the way back to Kuantan, i recalled a lot of things. Recently, my mood is not really stable, just like a pendulum swinging between the 2 maximum amplitude, happy and sad~ I am sad because i lost something very precious, however, in certain perspectives, i should be happy for i am already more lucky than other people~ Losing my motivation, i lose all my concentration in my study. In fact, i am not really did well in my examination~

Love is complicated~ A love without unexpected event is just like strolling on beach with no sea breeze, flying kite with no wind~ however, at the same time love bring happiness, the corresponding sadness is of equal magnitude~ perhaps, for now, it's is still better for me to stay single, for i am not yet ready for that, far not ready.. without love, i still can live on happily with my friends who love me so much.. So why i want to find trouble for myself??

30 june 2009, the biggest tragedy happen in my life, the event that totally screw up my life for nearly one month. however, the event made me tougher, that the time i begin to think of my future. When i recall back, the past event seems much easier compared to that, for which i will simply succumbed to and complaining to other. What i want to say here is i always be grateful to have friends like u all, keep supporting me by my side, though u din really know wad is happening.

Every person, every event appears in my life impose effect on me. The fact is, i have moulded into the person like u all are. I cant be myself, for I am belonged to you all. Without you, i am just nothing, nothing more than a shell without soul. Thats why i very grateful to have recognize everyone of you.

Bro, the strong bond formed between us is not based on the time, but is based on how v treat each other. Since v become the best pals from year 5, u always treat me with true heart. That what i really appreciate. Though i lost grasp of what happening to you recently, i still will be there to support you, and whenever u are willing to talk , i will be there for you.

Pals, no need to stubborn with the things that have past. There is no necessary to torture yourself with the things that have past, the love that has faded. Stay happy like always, for i always miss your noob smiling face.

Mum, here is my answer for ur question. Pure friendship between boys and girls do exist, but with condition that there is no "extra" feeling between them. When one of them fall in love with another, and is known by another, the friendship between them will never be pure anymore. And if such relationship is not handled well, it will only cause pain to the other. So, there will always 2 results come from such problems. however, no matter which pathway u will lead to, i will always there to support u~

Sorry for keep u waiting, i know u will surely feel weird why i will leave some words for you. In fact, this things i should have told u by myself 6 years ago. Forgive me for being so timid. I am here to admit that i did fall in love with you when i was in standard 6~ and such feeling is keep until form 5~ Dun worry, i am not asking you what or intending to give u a chase. but i just feel like telling u my feeling b4 i conclude my childhood memory and move on to the next stage. I want to thank you since u have motivated me so much, inspiring me to change myself to be a better man , n u should be proud of that~~ hahax.

Last and for all, i want to thank for everyone of u, for being part of my memory, part of myself. I love u all , pls stay happy and smile always~

(sorry for the poor language for i have been a long time not writing essay) ^.^