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姓名 ：林劲帆

出生日期 ：1992年12月31日（奇才架到）

星座 ：魔羯座

住址 ：关丹，暂居文良港

状况 ：非单身

最庆幸的事 ：我是男的

最光荣的事 ：荣获全彭中学生数学金牌那一幕

最白痴的事 ：哭着打电话给最好的朋友

最期待的事 ：毕业以后的事

最开心的事 ：当她说yes的时候

最喜欢做的事：看着她沉睡的样子

最窝心的事 ：秘密

最享受的事 ：和朋友谈天

最羡慕的事 ：相爱相对的情侣

最难过的事 ：家事

最讨厌的事 ：等

最害怕的事 ：身边爱的人落泪

最刺心的事 ：当妈妈落泪的那一幕

最内疚的事 ：对某人说过的一句谎言

最后悔的事 ：对朋友说过一些自私的话

最伤心的日子：09年6月30日，10年1月5日

最具纪念价值的日子：11年9月18日

最意外的日子：08年12月7日，11年9月1日，

最崇拜的人 ：（依照时间排列）

家豪，姐姐，哥哥

自己

最欣赏的性格：独立，有领导力的女生 ；不做作，以微笑待人的男生

最讨厌的性格：假死，虚伪

最想念的时光：中二，中五

最想回顾的时光：五年级

最喜欢看到的：她的笑容

最喜欢听到的：她的笑声

最爱歌手 ：王心凌，李圣杰

最喜欢的女生打扮：不妖艳，裙子～

最要好的朋友：家豪

最爱玩的游戏：DOTA

最喜欢的东西：家里那用了10多年的抱枕

最看不过眼的人：以自己观点为中心去批评人的人

性格：(坏)自我，矛盾，爱胡思乱想，集中时讨厌杂声，没耐心，执着，不知足，怕输

(好)除了以上的，其他方面都那么好，哈哈XD

空虚的心

面子书，专门培训新一代虚荣心强，交际能力弱的下一代～ 赞成～一路来都很赞成的这一个实验结论～把生活中的大小事务，就连非常琐碎的东西，也要post在面子书；把自己的照片，edit 成很像仙女酱，想要得到众人的注意，不管是认识的，不认识的，是色狼也好，是君子也好，通通都吃～这就是时下少男少女滥用面子书的现象～

我？无可否认，我也是其中的一族～虽然病态不算严重，不至于大小便都post 埋出来，但偶尔很是希望能得到周边朋友的注意，关心，哪怕是那一个like，都可以爽一下～有时，假假emo，骗几个好友来聊聊天，（这无聊的事最近没什么做了哈哈），也可以打发时间，给自己爽一下～翻翻旧时的message,才发现上一次和你聊天，已经是3个月前的事了～虽然和你通常只是空聊，聊聊各自的近况，但每次聊了都会觉得心灵上得到了些满足感～至少我知道，你这个朋友还真的是会关心人的～朋友，你还好吗？

空虚？这就是我的问题？无时无刻都需要人陪，需要人谈天，这就是我的问题么？从以前到现在从来都改不掉的毛病～就算日子过得多繁忙，一静下来，就想找个人聊聊天，谈谈心事～

？这问题我老早都知道了～可现在？为什么那安抚不了的心，还是无法静下？为什么每次和你聊完天，不管内容多么的甜，挂电后总会觉得一丝丝的空虚在心中油然而生～是因为还不习惯么？起初我是这么想的，但慢慢的，我总算知道了其中的原因～

想找一个真正关心自己的知音真的那么难吗？broda们都在忙自己的事，读书的读书，工作的工作，为女人烦的更多～朋友，总不能陪伴自己过一世～那么？我还得找什么来填补我这永远满足不了的心呢？自慰？o0o~

别人（女性）可以大方的把问题说在面子书上，nao gai 下，给自己的男朋友下一个马威～

我往下看了一下，最后还是把问题叙说在这没人看的部落格上~ haiz..男人～ 希望你可以找到你的人生目标吧～

加油加油加油 ！！！！

haha, i have finally finished my foundation course a... haha @@? y macam bo rasa d ? lol.. thought i will be very happy after getting through my stupid exam, yet, it wasnt.. The one-year foundation course really bring me a lot of fun. Most importantly, i have rest enough , play enough and now ,i m damn well prepared to accept the new challenge in my life, ACTUARY!!

haha, here i m going to summarize my feeling for the whole foundation. Long time no c i update my blog huh?? The reason very simple jek, i lazy ma.. hahax.. Always been my best excuse for everything i didnt do ..^^, but seriously i hope i going to change this bad habit~.

The first day in my foundation, i was very nervous, not anticipating of meeting new lecturer, the difficulty of the syllabus, but, to get a new friend. I was always too shy too express myself, to those not-so-familiar friend, apetah lagi to stranger? Yet , i was happy that i m able to introduce myself to the 2 person sitting beside me, and one of them is still friend with me, my driver, Mr foong ( sorry boss ). The one-year study at Utar PJ is quite enjoyable and i have quite a lot of friend there ( comparable to those i have in secondary, T.T pathetic ). though i m leaving utar pj, i m not feeling sad about it since we all will still meet in utar setapak, somemore in the same house.. hahax ^^~ ( i will miss u d , huanhuan XD).

Though i am going through a relaxing holiday at PJ, i found most of u , my broda are having a tough time in kuantan. Love , study m stress , family and blablabla. I can see that those laughter are decreasing and sadness is becoming more apparent. I cant ask u all one by one of what is happening but yet, i sincerly hope u all can get through it , seriously bro~

Back to myself , whenever people talking about me , after all it will come back to this topic~ " Hey bro, when are u going to find a gal jek, still cant let go of her meh? " lol, yes i am single, but that wasnt the reason for it. Simply because there is not neccessary for me to find one now , since the time is already packed enough for me, alone... ( just waiting God to anugerah me with a nice fate..haha)

lalala, n blabla, just now there was a lot in my brain but now ... empty @@? basically this cant represent my whole feeling for past year rather than this represent my feeling now.. XD.( and u cant possibly guess wrong my feeling right now ) and now, i dunno what to talk already and just wanna say , 加油 you can do it!! love u forever!! 哈哈哈！！

不偏不奇，恰巧而来的祝福

刚睡醒，看看手机的时间， 9点。 zZ., 又是睡过了时间，看看桌上杂乱的书本，赫然想起，我是正在准备考试的考生。考试？从来都不是个问题，但近来，对逐渐懒散的我，它，成为了一种挑战。 从前，面对考试的我，总会有着非般的冲劲，硬着头皮一直冲，冲，冲。直到把所有该读的，该做的， 都做完；但如今，给我10 个小时， 2 个小时在上网，3个小时在睡觉。直到刚看到一行简单的祝福，一个祝我好运的短信，我才了解，这就是我所缺乏的。身边的朋友都不曾衷心地祝福我，对他们而言，对4.0的追求，是一种奢侈。最常听到的那句，aiya,你酱geng,怕什么啦，扣拿一点点分而已吗，我们这种才叫惨。。blablabla。可他们从没想过，我对自己也有自己的要求，自己的梦想。他们有难题的时候，我可以去帮忙，一个tank 56个学生都可以，可他们却连一句简单的“ 阿凡，加油”也懒得施舍给我， 这，也是逐渐让我心灰的原因。。但，看见了那一封恰好而来，那一封简单的祝福，我才发现，我，总有远方的朋友支持着我，我的家，我的挚友，都一直陪伴着我。

谢谢你，让我暂时释怀，让我重新找回我的方向， 谢谢。。

爱~

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一个傻哥哥对小妹的故事~
曾几何时，我也像个小孩一样，期待着哥哥对自己的关爱，期待被爱环绕着的滋味~ 很庆幸的，自小我就活在一个幸福美满的家庭，一直都温温馨馨的，至少在那件事发生之前，一直都是~

很多人都说过，爱一个人就得让她幸福，快乐，即使是让自己承担所有的痛苦，直到遍体鳞伤，也得让她快乐。 。。无知！ 爱一个人，要让她快乐，这，的确是对的，但是，牺牲自己的幸福,来换取他的快乐，那是愚蠢，自私的行为。若每一个人都抱着这种观念，那将会是个悲剧~

是否想过，当你在默默地为你心仪的对象付出的同时， 在你的身后亦有一个默默地为你付出的人~ 这些人和你都一样, 以心仪对象的幸福为自己快乐的资源。当她看见你为了另外一个女人而搞到自己堕落不堪，她的感觉又会是怎样的呢？

想让一个人快乐，就得先让自己活得快乐，哪怕是正处于热恋期的情侣，亦或是拥有暗恋对象的朋友们也都一样~ 不要一味地为你爱的人付出，也要让她感觉到自己有被需要到~

如果爱一个人就要让她开心，那么，请好好照顾自己，别让爱你的人伤心~

我过得很好~ 你呢？

矛盾

有头脑的人羡幕有身手的人， 有身手的人妒忌有头脑的人； 单身的人期盼恋爱的甜蜜， 双身人怀念单身的自由。~人之本性

人的本性就是这样，矛盾，不知足，往往不对自己拥有的一切感到满足。其实，刀无两面利，事无双面全，一件事情的丑恶只在乎于一个人的看法. 一个凡事顺顺利利的人经不起考验；一个能从挫折中站起来的人才是最终的胜利者， 不曾失去过的东西，我们不懂得珍惜；错过了的机缘，我们才懂得惋惜，一对感情不曾出现状况的情人只能舔到恋爱表层的甜点，却永远都体会不到安抚以后两人重圆的甜蜜~

人，总是那么的可爱，明白这些道理的人，却不懂得实践，往往为无畏的事情而烦脑。曾几何时，拥有无限动力的我，在人生的起跑点奠下了先机；如今的我，失去了动力，过着这没有压力的漫长假期，开始感到厌倦，无奈~

失去了动力，意味这更好的动力在等待着我。在哪里？
我不知道~





*顺道向于今天生日的陈小姐祝贺：生日快日~ ^.^

Reborn

Today, the troublesome final examination has finally ended. On the way back to Kuantan, i recalled a lot of things. Recently, my mood is not really stable, just like a pendulum swinging between the 2 maximum amplitude, happy and sad~ I am sad because i lost something very precious, however, in certain perspectives, i should be happy for i am already more lucky than other people~ Losing my motivation, i lose all my concentration in my study. In fact, i am not really did well in my examination~

Love is complicated~ A love without unexpected event is just like strolling on beach with no sea breeze, flying kite with no wind~ however, at the same time love bring happiness, the corresponding sadness is of equal magnitude~ perhaps, for now, it's is still better for me to stay single, for i am not yet ready for that, far not ready.. without love, i still can live on happily with my friends who love me so much.. So why i want to find trouble for myself??

30 june 2009, the biggest tragedy happen in my life, the event that totally screw up my life for nearly one month. however, the event made me tougher, that the time i begin to think of my future. When i recall back, the past event seems much easier compared to that, for which i will simply succumbed to and complaining to other. What i want to say here is i always be grateful to have friends like u all, keep supporting me by my side, though u din really know wad is happening.

Every person, every event appears in my life impose effect on me. The fact is, i have moulded into the person like u all are. I cant be myself, for I am belonged to you all. Without you, i am just nothing, nothing more than a shell without soul. Thats why i very grateful to have recognize everyone of you.

Bro, the strong bond formed between us is not based on the time, but is based on how v treat each other. Since v become the best pals from year 5, u always treat me with true heart. That what i really appreciate. Though i lost grasp of what happening to you recently, i still will be there to support you, and whenever u are willing to talk , i will be there for you.

Pals, no need to stubborn with the things that have past. There is no necessary to torture yourself with the things that have past, the love that has faded. Stay happy like always, for i always miss your noob smiling face.

Mum, here is my answer for ur question. Pure friendship between boys and girls do exist, but with condition that there is no "extra" feeling between them. When one of them fall in love with another, and is known by another, the friendship between them will never be pure anymore. And if such relationship is not handled well, it will only cause pain to the other. So, there will always 2 results come from such problems. however, no matter which pathway u will lead to, i will always there to support u~

Sorry for keep u waiting, i know u will surely feel weird why i will leave some words for you. In fact, this things i should have told u by myself 6 years ago. Forgive me for being so timid. I am here to admit that i did fall in love with you when i was in standard 6~ and such feeling is keep until form 5~ Dun worry, i am not asking you what or intending to give u a chase. but i just feel like telling u my feeling b4 i conclude my childhood memory and move on to the next stage. I want to thank you since u have motivated me so much, inspiring me to change myself to be a better man , n u should be proud of that~~ hahax.

Last and for all, i want to thank for everyone of u, for being part of my memory, part of myself. I love u all , pls stay happy and smile always~

(sorry for the poor language for i have been a long time not writing essay) ^.^